Japan is going through a severely tough time, possibly the toughest ever that I might experience in my life time. I am beginning to fail as a believer of "things happen for a reason", because of this.
What is happening out there is beyond my conception. I simply cannot conceive of what I am seeing on TV and reading on papers. Where it's all happening and people suffering, where everything is tangible, is far from where I lead my life. I go to work, eat warm food three times a day, use paper or gas or heat or water as I please, and in the end of the day I have a warm and comfortable bed to sleep on. Like nothing happened. In the bed I often imagine for a second that the people in the north have lost all of this that I have, and I am at loss for words to describe how I feel. Places of dear memories. Items of values. Beloved family members and friends. All gone. All.
Yet, my life keeps going as it did before. I am lucky to be alive, and to have everything that I do, both of which I have easily taken for granted. I keep telling myself "it is wrong of me to despair. Not now. Not yet."
May God be with us all. May God help the country get through even this.
Until next time,